Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Hmm... it seems to be like i see... 2 months ago since i last blogged? A lot of things happened during this 2 months actually. I've threw one of the best parties that I think I'd ever have in my life during this 2 months. One is on X'mas and one is on 2007 countdown. During 2006, I've met a lot of people, some stayed and some left, some became the best buddies that I'll never forget and some just taught me that in life there's just some that are so full of themselves. 2006 was a sucky yet fruitful year cause of the people i was able to meet and those who really stayed on. I did doubt that my band would work out due to various reasons and excuses. But at the end of the day, they're the best thing that every happened to me in my life and I'll never leave them until the day that they leave me. I believe that one day when we're all old, we may just end up exactly like the mtv of kurumi. LOL! But one thing that brings everything down is that a lot of things happened and I wasn't able to manage myself. In the end I've became a gutless, low self esteem, misguided in faith, cowardice towards beliefs, ignorant against taboos and confused little girl who thinks time is running out on her. But i really do hope that in time, I'll change into a better person. I just self pity isn't something anyone should do but it is definitely something everyone fell into. I do not deny that me myself self pity practically everything when I end up quarreling and arguing with my mom about for failure on teaching her kids and mt failure on managing the family. I do hope things can change though. Like that the book Levan gave me said, " To change, you have to change yourself first. And to change yourself fully, you have to be willing to do so." Everybody needs time to change for the better but are you willing to change for the better or do you think you're not anywhere near fault? I feel bad and dislike myself for not having the grace of God to forgive and forget but i cannot deny that i don't wanna try forgiving anyone. I do admit that I'm lingering in my own pain. I'm sorry but I'm human. I cant just forgive someone by just hearing a simple apology from that person.its either you prove to me that you're worth my time or you'll just have to wait until the fear and hatred within me dissolves like cigarette smoke on air. My heart is not as broad as the coastline and not as strong as the tidal waves. Please consider that I'm flesh and blood just like everyone else. I cannot deny that i missed you.But i just cannot accept another woman who took me for granted because of my strong appearance and most importantly, because of another guy who's priority isn't even anywhere her. I'm sorry i cant force myself to smile at someone that i don't wish to see. I'm not like you.

& 2:22 AM

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I'm waiting, waiting for you.
Are you waiting at the other end too?
When you look up into the night sky,
remember that we're starring at the same beautiful stars
underneath the same mesmerising moon.
So come to me as i know you feel my pain too.
I'm waiting, the power of music and fate will lead you to me.
Till then, I'll be waiting and missing you.

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This layout was done by nette, with the help of Brushes from 100X100 and the Codes from kriss.Finally, the lovely image was taken from: deviantart. Pls do not take out the credits. *Cedits to Aries myself for a little editing on the poem. =)"

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

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