Thursday, February 09, 2006

It seems that as time goes by, human nature is begining to show itself. I see those who can be trusted and those who i once trusted. Its a little freaky actually, knowing someone worthy of my trust ended up to be nothing but another dumb bag. Actually i should know it by now, seeing what is actually going on. I feel rather traumatized by my surrounding people. I don't mind being alone but i hate it when i KNOW i'm alone. That suck cause it made me rather dependent on people's company which is bad. Now i learnt that, only him and her are the people i could really put my trust on. Ya.. The him which is so near yet so far away and the her who is yes always there. Somehow we are just so similar and yet so different. school still seems the last place i wanna be. I fell in love with my humanities and physics lessons but somehow maths just pull me away.. The horror of formulars and equations is growing into my bones. These days, i wonder if its because of my monthly issues or meer affection, i see dest's face everywhere. Every single moment, his face smiling at me and the times when he laughs keep ringing in my head. Especially the times at the band's jamming sessions, the ero he's giving out is just right. Even though he's such a sucked up asshole who is totally insensitive and obilivious towards his surrounding atmosphere, he's still attracting. He never fails to keep to his promises and always responsible towards everything he do. There maybe a billion people out there who's so much better than him in any expects like art and music which i always take very seriously about, he's still the best. i don't know, i just feel calm and happy when i know he is too. I love his smile and laughter so much that at times i could even dream about it when i sleep, dayream his sleeping face in the day and images of him laughing and joking around every now and then every moment. I think knowing him, whether is it a far or near, I still feel happy. At times when he really hurts me with his words, yes i feel very upset. But everytime he never really did take it seriously, even though its ironic but i feel rather relieved. I always felt this way every since i seen him at koyuki's house. His smile is just so beautiful and nothing in words i could discribe the joy it brought me. It may seems stupid but actually, when i was still madly "in love" with my son and feel totally miserable about it. Hanging out with kopyuki,him and ID seems the best thing ever happened. Not forgeting the day at marina square's foodcourt where we sat down discussing whether i should be their keyboardist and play "Grass". That i should say is one of the best days of my life last year. haiz... This is crazy man... No wonder i have no further interest with frank and that ichigo guy.. I just cant get him out of my head! damn it.... i always wanting a weaker guy so that he could listen to me and accompany me go where ever i want and be under his wings. what the hell.. In the end i go for a guy who's never gonna be with me and make me even more determine to be independent. He taught me that actually reading aint that difficult, he taughet me how little i actually know about things, he taught me actually staying away from gossips and little girls who cant keep their mouth shut as far away as possible is good for me. He may not know it but he changed my life. As my mentor without him knowing, as my motivater without him acknowledging, as my number one admirer carrying his rejection, he's the best....

& 12:08 AM

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I'm waiting, waiting for you.
Are you waiting at the other end too?
When you look up into the night sky,
remember that we're starring at the same beautiful stars
underneath the same mesmerising moon.
So come to me as i know you feel my pain too.
I'm waiting, the power of music and fate will lead you to me.
Till then, I'll be waiting and missing you.

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