Thursday, March 02, 2006

today i never go to school again... was thinking might as well dun go for the whole week le... no point going for tml what... the lessons tml are somewhat useless... i feel so sad... i just watch sailor moon final episode on youtube.com... i feel like i'm just a dry leaf floating by the winds not knowing which direction i'm going. flying over the lands feeling so alone.. it reminds me why i love sailormoon so much when i'm young. it gives me the same feeling i'm having now.. i wish things were like it use whe n i'm sec1.. when ruimin n i still goes to school together.. things look so diffeent after she left.. i never had a friend who cares for me so much.. not even pamela when she's still very much dependent on me.. i feel like i'm not where in space ahz.. i couldnt think of what is really bothering me until yesterday when ivan told me i'm too lonely thats why i feel so empty and frustrated about things around me. i did so many thing to escape the fact that i am feeling very lonely but i just now it aint getting me anywhere...i dont miss anyone right now but i don't know why i just feel so alone. i don't wanna be emo but that is how i feel ahz.. last night i dreamt of something again... its another very weird dream as always. i'm still doing the "as long as i have people with me thats enough" attitude until this person popped out and tell a person i know "i'm the one who you've been waiting and wishing for to come.." then the person beside tells me.." everyone will have someone in their mind who they don't even know wishing and waiting for that person to appear to get them off their lonliness. And so happens that this this person here somehow knows its that person over there that he's waiting for in his life." i know in real life there wouldn't be someone walking up to me in the street and say.." i've waited you and you've waited me for a very long time. Finally we met and we'll never be alone again." But if one day, it happened. I'll burst into tears even if i don't know the person. i know its stupid to react this way but for more than 15 years in my life, i've never feel that i can actually believe in someone and find someone when i really needed help before. So a friend means alot to me. lonliness is a terrible feeling....

& 12:47 PM

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

haiz... didnt go school again! T.T haiz... despite dragging myself up to early in the end ended up like that... >.<

& 12:21 PM

Monday, February 27, 2006

argh! in the end i didnt go school... T^T lazy~ =P have a number of plans to set for today since i'm not going to school anyway... think i better go now... LOL!

& 10:21 AM

color testing~

& 6:39 AM

ohayo gozaimasu.............. hopeing from today on i'll go to school continously. Its been quite a while since attended class for a week. For the past whole month i only attended 1 day for week. Thats bad.. hopeing things will turn out better...i'm very lazy to be emo anymore. From now on when problem finds me, i'll just walk away. No point wasting my time and make myself miserable to think about it anyway. In fact after these days of watching anime and spending time with myself, i felt happier. As long as i don't interact with people who only know how to self pity themselve and nag about their problems without thinking how to solve them, i'll be alright. i find that being ignorant really is a bliss. Know so much shit for what.. LOL! I don't really enjoy talking about other people's busniess anyway. I have too much problems of my own.I aint saying that i aint gonna care for people anymore ahz... But what i know is that i spoiled my friends ah.. And that sucks.. Anyway, i find kairong cuter and cuter each time i see his display pic, kairong from lucify, just in case i forgot who is he LOL!. Haiz... him and misaki is soooo bishi now... well, misaki is the one who i asked email from at first, kairong is just introduced through a friend of mine who apparently block me. *i think its cause i aint goth anymore thats why LOL* Back to the topic , misaki cosplayed toshiya from DEG before and he's a guitarist + backup vocal + keyboardist!! *no wonder i asked for his email* But the fact that i find it extremely hard to chat with him. We don't have much common factors actually. I don't know what he likes and stuff like that. And he doesnt start the topics so currently he's just another email in my msn. Where as kairong from " i find this guy kinda irritating" become "hey he's rather cute.". LOL! i aint implying that i like him. In fact i don't really like anyone now. i gave dest up already and this time is for real. Anime is evil~ LOL! it makes my standed even higher... =X I rather spend my time staring at yue, yuikito and touya... =P I found the genki me back again! thats good... LOL! I like the genki me more than the emo me cause i feel happy. one thing is i don't give a shit to stuff but the main reason is cause i feel happier now... wai~~~~ LOL! ^-^

& 6:16 AM

Sunday, February 26, 2006

testing one 2 three

& 8:12 PM

testing one.... two... .three.e......

& 7:55 PM

new skin

& 5:49 PM

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Aries

Aka Yakiko, Aiki, Aki Yagami
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Cosplayer
Vocalist
Roaming Entertainment
Inner peace seeker
Hyperactive maniac

Wishlist
Red/ White contact eye lances
Corset
Tango course
Salsa course
Vocal course
Keyboard/Piano course
Yoga course
My own room
Baking oven
Sailor Uniform
New pair of shoes
New clothes

I'm waiting, waiting for you.
Are you waiting at the other end too?
When you look up into the night sky,
remember that we're starring at the same beautiful stars
underneath the same mesmerising moon.
So come to me as i know you feel my pain too.
I'm waiting, the power of music and fate will lead you to me.
Till then, I'll be waiting and missing you.

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This layout was done by nette, with the help of Brushes from 100X100 and the Codes from kriss.Finally, the lovely image was taken from: deviantart. Pls do not take out the credits. *Cedits to Aries myself for a little editing on the poem. =)"