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Saturday, February 04, 2006

well.. this is the point in time when i start reflecting about whats going around me. I really think that money plays a big part in life. If i'm rich, life would be so much better....

20 things i could think of if i am rich....

1: I could bring my dogs to training school.
2: I could groom my dogs. *i love my dogs from the deepest part of heart but i just don't know how to take care of them*
3: I could hire a maid to do all the house chores.
4: I can afford to rent a place.
5: I can afford to learn piano and keyboard.
6: I can afford my own internet connection.
7: I can stop my mom from working.
8: I could be free from the stress of lack of money.
9: I could go for treatments that will cure my skin.
10: I could go for a body checkup.
11: I could go for my operation.
12: I could go to australia without worrying about the $ so much.
13: I could stop borrowing $ from my friends.
14: I could buy ingrodients and cook for my friends.
15: I can custom all my clothes.
16: I can afford to eat good and healthy food everyday.
17: I can learn dancing.
18: I can learn japanese.
19: I can afford a tuition teacher.
20: I can afford concert tickets!

I feel rather sad actually. Its not really about anything... i don't know. Life still feel empty. i haven found my purpose yet. And yes, i have not found myself yet.....

& 2:18 AM

Monday, January 30, 2006

chinese new year... oh how i hate chinese new year.... -.-

New year's eve: Go my uncle's house eat steam boat, i accidently pushed the "wanton" out from his scoop and he stared at me giving my the idea he wants to whack me. I DID said sorry but he gave me that same look until my mom got so afraid that she just have to torlerate him saying," theres no need to talk, just by staring is enough to let her know the message". Yes he's a jackass i know...

1st day of the new year: woke up by my mom's terrible lecturing about how messy the house was. After which, my mom cooked lunch for us but my brother don't wanna get his ass out off his chair to move just because he don't wanna move away from the meat so in the end we started a quarrel that leads to a fight...

Me: Eh.. move here a bit lei.. theres no space. only you and sis is taking up the whole space of the table.

Jackass: You can sit in between us right?

Me: But you move it'll be more convinent. the Chair is just besides you and its damn heavy lo. Just move abit la!

Jackass: Who are you to order my me around?

Me: Cause i make more sense than you now so move!

Jackass: Why you want to sialan with me is it? Who are you to order me around? What kind of fucking attitude was that ah ?! I tell you" wo ren ni hen jiu le " ok?! Outside so sialan now at home aso wanna sialan with me? Who you think you are?

Me: Kaoz! Now i just want you to move! Whats with you?

*my mom run out standing infront of me trying to block my brother's reach*

mom: ah boy ah you cannot like that talk to you sister..

Jackass: Knn don't think you have a lot of friends you very pro ah.. All ways think you're right ah? Come la scared you ah! "qi kua mai la!" we call people come down la! See who's more pro la! A lot of friends big fuck ah? Talk to me like that. "wo ren ni hen jiu le hor!"

Me: you siao ah? Not like as if you talk to me very nicely these days. Yesterday you're like that. today aso. Sot ah!

*then that jackass gave me 1 hard slap on the left side of my face.*

Jackass: Not happy call people come down la! KNN CB! come la! call people la!

*then he gave me a punch on my left side again. My mom pushed him away crying begging him not to hit me whereas i was laughing my ass away*

Jackass: KNN laugh what laugh! very funny izzit?

*attemtped to hit me but hit my mom instead*

Me: TMD mother "gai ni ta de ah?!"

Jackass: I'm not hitting her i'm hitting you!

*my mom beg him not to hit me anymore while i was still looking into his eyes like he's just another jerk that i look down on.*

I was really laughing when he said all those. 20years old and he could open his ass stinking mouth saying this type of bullshit. But after which my asthma got on me. My mom was very freaked out. But oh well~ If i want him dead now i can~ i have the wound my face face now, all i have to do is to drop by the doctor n police and he's into the cell. But no~ i'll wait. i just have to list everything down for now. I'm condamning him and what ever he do WILL be listed down. 1 more tike n thats it.. game over... i don't believe in kinship anyway... so its ok~ he keep saying he's so pitiful after he watch that fucking retarded jack neo's movie abt this 3 retarded children. He's life from what i see... he's just another spoiled brat... I go N you look down on me.. Once i get my diploma n degree... u're gonna get it... jackass....

3rd day of new year: WEll... more n more hypocritcy... I'm blinded today....

& 9:53 AM

wah.. now a days people are driving me nuts... gossips here and there... unnessesary lecturing everywhere... I'm also one who produced empty lecturing so can't add more to it.. This sucks... Didn't know cosplay circle could be so complicated... No wonder the senior cosplayers prefer to go solo... I think i'm going solo too.. Being in a group sucks! Even in cosplay theres such politics and hypocritcy.. I'm getting really lazy just thinking about it.. My poor wifes.. One people take her for granted throwing their temper at her nall the time.. Oh well.. hope my son do a good job in taking care of her... The other one... whats wrong with people know a days... nothing better to do? picking an inner war with her all the time.. and the last one.. so quiet so innocent... don't even know people behind her wants her dead for being good.. sheesh..... Well, maybe because of these bullshit, they learn wants the meaning of keep their mouth shut. I noticed, people who nags alot and ask alot of useless questions are people who JUST never learn... just like tere... no matter who many times i screw her in her ear to get her to understand... she JUST don't understand.. oh well... she'll get it one day... I'll get my retribution too you know? Thats why i can't be bothered to lie to people. We just need to WAIT and see... Well, i still love my hobbie of loitering around everywhere looking for new stuff so its ok... Solitute and loniness aint gonna kill me.. in fact i think i need it now.. i need some peace damn it... i wanna get away from these bullshit as FAR as possible man.. wonder whats with people now a days... oh well... I doubt i'm anti social cause i CAN mix around with people i don't know quite well and enjoy it.. But i don't know why... everytime when it gets rather personally.. all the things start happening...weird... must learn one thing.... ignorance is a bliss... listening is always better than debating.... unless its really nessesary... I aint as smart as frank's okasan.. *she's the greek goddess Aphrodite... never seen a woman like her....* but at least i still have the mentalilty to know staying away from trouble is good for me.. oh well.. there aint no God looking out for me... too bad~

Ok.. know for me to update myself a little bit... My memory is getting more and more short termed... so better stock up myself a bit..

21st janary 2006

It was one of the day which i would say.." a day not wasted." Well, i got up pretty early in the morning to go to NUS for frank's kendo competition. There were four competitors in this competition, 1stly SMU, 2ndly NUS, 3rdly NYP and last but not least SKC aka Singapore Kendo Club. This is the first time i get to see what kendo is really like so pretty much excited about it. When i reached there, i didn't know i should just stand there and watch or to go up to the viewing area cause i have no idea how to get to the viewing place. Got to know a lady called adeline who's came to be a spectetor like me. The match started out rather hair raising, not because of the climax but because of the shouting and screaming of the female contestants. I had no idea why they need to shout and scream like that but that really gives me the creeps cause i have a phobia of hearing screams and shouts that is produced by a female. It match was long.. Didnt really know what was going on actually until frank came up and told me what it was all about. To score a point, the attacker must hit either the head, wrist or waist with a loud stamp on the feet and a shout, all of these must coordinate together as a single blow to be counted as 1 point. There is either a red or white piece of cloth attached to the back of their armour identifying which side the contestant is on. There are 3 judges, all 3 of them has both a white and red flag in their hands. In order to make it fair, 2/3 red flags must be raised to signal that the red team has score a point so on so fore. There is another judge at the panel who has a yellow flag. When the time limit of 1min is up, the judge will raise the yellow flag and winner will be listed on the board. After his explanation, things begin to make sense now. The male individual competition is shocking. The males are obviously more agressive than the females so somehow added tension to the whole area. But nothing compared to the team catergory where the schools and club must spilt up into groups against the opponing team. Well, unforturnately for SMU, in the male's team competition, SMU have to face up with the other SMU team. In the end, frank's team lost. But its ok, he tried his best. We didnt stay to watch the entire match cause well, both of us are really tired so we left early. Frank dropped me at redhill mrt station so that he could go home and have some rest. While waiting for tere who i except is gonna be late for 3hrs again, i took the train to clake quay mrt and walk don't to bugis. Well exploring the central part of singapore, i walked through the art museum and victoria concert hall. To be really frank, i have no idea how to get to victoria concert hall so this trip has paid off already once i found victoria concert hall. I spend about half an hour taking bouchies of the out coming events that it gonna happen there reading and choicing which performance i would like to attend. After which, i set off walking towards esplanade, the original plan was to walk to bugis n play arcade while waiting for tere n frank for dinner. But when i was around esplanade, it started to rain. I went into esplanade and found out esplanade is a fasinating heaven. It has custom making teddys which you could make almost anything possible except making the bears come alive walking around. I spent about an hour in the tea shop chatting with the uncle. I learnt alot of things from him actually. What kind of tea comes from where, whats the difference between indian tea and chinese tea, what i could do with boiled tea leaves n tea bags besides putting them in the fridge etc.. We chatted for awhile, he told me a lot of things i could do if i take things slowly. Ways on how to plan myself, relax and enjoy myself more. i was offered to come back after my O next year to learn chinese tea ceremony and work there for the holidays. =) I don;t mind at all actually, its a r4eally nice place, and i always wanted to work there so ya.. Went deeper into esplanade saw took a look at the arts of a china artist. I find his nude n sexual photo media very interesting. using photography creating different stories out of it. The malays behind me were complaining that it was pornography and have no idea what it is talking about. Oh well, i'm sure i know what its all about, in fact i find it fasinating on how the way he portray things out. Around esplanade i went and soon i ended up at city link. Met tammy always complaining how late she could be cause at that moment in time,from accurate prediction i made early, yes she's late for 3hrs. man her perm hair... eeek... the horror of the sight of it. well, she paid for my expenive dinner at 'The Asian Kitchen" so no right to nag at her now. LOL! the service there was good.. the food there was good too. just that its considered a rip off if you're living nin singapore eating singapore food everyday. not long, frank called me up and went to subway for his dinner. after which we went to the fountain of fortune and last but not least.. the arcade! shit man i wasted $4 on that bloody game house of the dead not even getting through justice... the gun sucks man... >.< all on all... its a good day~

days after which are very boring and annoying so i doubt theres a need for me to post... what happened between 21st jan til today is about all the irritating rumours and gossips which my previous post has clearly stated what happened.. One things for sure... these stuff waste my time.. i rather go exploring again then to give a shit about this man...

& 12:58 AM

this is my new blog~ no more extra retarded kpos peeking into my life...

& 12:52 AM

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